I don't think you understand how the bidding works. People don't sit here and keep outbidding you to try to spite you. They put in a high bid for how high they want to go and it automatically outbids you if you're under that high bid. No one is out to get you and trying to beat you. People could really care less who they beat, if they want it, they want it.
Tons of people are in need also, and not out to just 'hord your bidding'.
I'm sure I can speak for all of us in the fact that we will pray for you and hope that you drop the bitterness and rudeness to people.