Congratulations on the grandbaby. And I know how you feel about not knowing. I always bought some of both. Always had family or friends that needed the ones I didn't need.
Oh my!! I just dont know if i would have the energy for more little ones full time. Lol. After bringing my own kids to so many hockey practices, soccer, baseball and basketball for so many years i get tired thinking about if i would have to do it again. Lol.
I will be 53 in April and had to fight for him just to give him a good safe place and a chance to be happy and not go without food ect. Its hard on me but dont trust anyone else to raise him.